29 February 2008

23 and a half!

Happy Half Birthday to me!

I know it's not a big deal ...at all... but I kind of enjoy that my half birthday only occurs every 4 years. And Happy Birthday to my sister Gina tomorrow!

When I think about the last 6 months, I can't even believe how much has happened. I feel like I just turned 23, but at the same time, it feels like I've been married forever. Unless I am thinking of specific events from singledom, I have a hard time remembering what it felt like to not have Luke as a constant in my life. I have definitely learned so much in the past 6 months (especially the nearly 5 months of marriage).

I was talking to Luke last night, just kind of being grumpy and complaining (I know, it's shocking) and it kind of just came out of me how difficult this adjustment has been for me. I don't just mean getting married, but I mean the last couple of years where I was wrapping up my college years and trying to find a life for myself. Many of my close friends have moved away or been gone for quite a while and I've just been here watching the ward change around me while I felt like I wasn't really changing much. Well, you know, until I got married. Just thinking about all of that made me realize that this really is the beginning of the rest of my life. I wish I could still be close to my friends the way I used to be, but the truth is, many of them are not all that close anymore. It's hard to admit that people you've known so well as a part of your life really aren't there anymore. That's not because of any fault of theirs or mine, but just the effects of time kicking in. I am so happy for all of you who are doing well, and I WILL NOT ever lose touch with you completely, even if it meant that you had to go far. And I realize that there are some dear friends here in this same town who are not as close as they used to be just because of the ways my life has changed (and theirs as well). I am grateful for life progression and the greater capacity of love and joy it brings to my life, but sometimes it's just hard to let myself realize that it will never be the same again... and that that's a good thing.

I am so grateful for my husband. He is so patient with me (most of you know I can be REALLY grumpy sometimes) even when I don't deserve it. I never knew I had the capacity to feel so much love for another person. People told us the newlywed feeling would kind of wear off after a couple of months, but we're coming on month 5 and I am still just as ridiculously excited to be married to my best friend as the day we were sealed in the temple for Eternity. Life really is good.

23 February 2008

ACDA, stolen phone

ACDA was a success. I went Thursday evening, stayed in my hotel room the whole night, and went to bed early. The next morning I sat in on a couple of rehearsals. It turns out that I didn't really need to be there until right before the concert because that's the first time we ever practiced my piece (and I never got to rehearse it in the Folly Theater where we performed). That was a little frustrating because I felt like I was missing work for nothing.

The concert turned out great and a lot of familiar faces were in the audience. My parents were there along with my junior high and high school choir teachers, my main university choir director, my good and long-time friend Greg, and several former KU Chamber Choir members (they were GTA's at the time) who I really enjoyed singing with in my younger KU years and have long since passed KU by now. You'd think all the familiar faces would intensify my nerves, but they really just made me feel at home. I was able to relax and just sing the song that by then I knew so well. Everyone was very complimentary afterward and I felt like it was one of the best times I had ever sung it. The whole concert was great and the Folly Theater is SO FUN to sing in. Mom and Dad bought the recording of the concert, so when we get it, I'll post the audio of 'David of the White Rock' in all its glory.

Tonight at Walmart Luke's phone got stollen when it fell out of his pocket in the fitting room. We went back once we realized Luke didn't have it and it was long gone. We went to the Sprint store and luckily we knew the guy who was working there (from church) and he was able to help us out by getting Luke a new phone for just $50 (after a rebate) instead of having to pay full price. It's still not fun to have to drop $50 so unexpectedly, but it was a great blessing to have a connection. The lamest part of the story is that Adam (our friend who helped us) told us that someone had called to report Luke's phone stolen, then called back to report it found. LAME!

Now Luke's brother's Matt & Jake, and his friend Nick, are here playing Halo 3 until who knows when. I'm not waiting up.

16 February 2008

Our first Valentine's Day was a nice, low key evening. We went to Chili's for dinner at about 4:30 (we both didn't eat much for lunch), then ate the leftovers at about 9 later that night. We avoided the crowds and had good food, so I won't complain there. Then we just stayed in, watching movies and relaxing. Most of the time, that's all I need.

At work, one of the hours I assist a student in a Jewelry class, which so far has been a lot of fun for me. I have to be careful not to take over his projects, but am glad to assist when he needs my help getting things started or things like that. Right now they're making decorative pins out of twisting copper wire and adding beads and coils of colored wire. I'm helping my student make one that is shaped like a guitar and he's really enjoying that he made something he would actually be proud to wear. He is getting the hang of this assignment, so his teacher said I could make my own pin :) I made a design with a treble clef and some circles and like it a lot. It isn't done yet, but you may see me wearing it at some point in the near future.

I finally got some prints from my wedding and our trip to Idaho for Matt and Ali's wedding. We got a collage frame for our wedding and finally just filled it this week. I've also ordered an 8x10 print of the Nauvoo Temple. I had taken the picture a while back when the ward went for Fall Break and I used my newly learned skills from Digital Imaging class to edit it and make it look really nice (it's the current profile picture). I'm excited to get that, as well as some other prints I got for a gift... details on that later.

Not a lot has gone on the past couple of weeks. Last week I was sick half the week and the other half was at Mandt training (it's the school district's choice of method for assisting and restraining students when necessary and is based on building relationships to try and prevent incidents from happening). This week I've just been SO EXHAUSTED every day that I just come home after work and can hardly function. Many naps have been taken in preparation for the upcoming week of concert events for ACDA. Today after work Luke and I both accidentally slept for about 4 hours. Ah well. I guess we needed it.

On a less personal note, the teaser trailer for the new Indiana Jones movie came out on V-Day and I have to say I was pleasantly surprised. I'm just glad they're not trying to make super old Harrison Ford look like he hasn't aged. They make note of his age and allow it to contribute to the humor of the movie. We'll definitely see it, along with a long list of movies that we plan to see: Juno, Fool's Gold, 27 Dresses, The Bucket List, The Spiderwick Chronicles (and those are just movies that are already out... we haven't been to a movie in a while).

Life is good...and exhausting. Good night.

03 February 2008

ACDA

I am sick again, I cannot believe it. This time Luke is sick too, so usually if something is strong enough to get him (he has the immune system of a rock), then I'm a goner.

I am going to be singing with the KU Concert Choir at the ACDA conference, which just happens to be in Kansas City this year at the end of February. They're doing a couple of pieces that they did last spring when I was in the choir, including a piece where I was featured, so that's why I was asked to do it. It should be a lot of fun... I haven't sung for real pretty much since then, so I'm pumped... but that also means lots of practice will be needed. Back when we first sang it, I posted it on my xanga blog, so here's a link if you want to hear me singing "David of the White Rock." I'm the soloist throughout. This is the other piece I'll be singing with them, called "Jamaican Medley," which was written by our director, Paul Tucker. These recordings are from last year, when we performed them at KMEA Convention as the featured group.

Also, my dear friend Lori will be at ACDA with her group from Colorado (UNC), so I'm way excited to get to see her!

02 February 2008

Tribute to the late LDS President Hinckley

I don't know if you're familiar with Glenn Beck, but this is his tribute to Pres. Hinckley.

“‘Here and there, and now and then, God makes a giant among men.’ President [Gordon B.] Hinckley was such a giant – a giant of knowledge, of faith, of testimony, of compassion, of vision.” --President Thomas S. Monson

President Hinckley's Funeral today was beautiful; I was able to watch it from the computer. It emphasized the hope and inspiration that he radiated and was able to share in his example to everyone he met. It emphasized his wit and good humor, his commitment and dedication to his family and to the church. It emphasized his desire to continually be better, to stand up for something, to be willing to stand out from the world, to serve with confidence in the Lord. I know I can continue to learn from his example and I will. I look forward to the great things that will come to pass because of the hard work of the new prophet, who will most likely be President Thomas S. Monson. I am grateful to know that until Christ comes again, a prophet will stand on the earth to do His work.

31 January 2008



http://www.enjoylawrence.com/Kids_Calendar.html

My adorable niece Elise is on the cover of this month's Lawrence Kids' Calendar. It's a free monthly publication that let's you know everything fun going on for kids during the month. They have it at grocery stores (I saw a bunch at Checker's today), the nature center, places like that. My sister Lori submitted that picture (along with one of her older daughter Ava, that was also a great picture) kind of on a whim, so that's fun!

Life is good. I'm re-reading Ender's Shadow by Orson Scott Card because I was jealous that Luke was reading Ender's Game for the first time (one of my all-time favorite books, if anyone wants to borrow it). Ender's Shadow is parallel to Ender's Game... takes place at the same time, but from a different character's perspective. I like it just as much, as well as its 2 sequels, which I will read again after this one. Ender's Game has 3 sequels as well, which I I haven't read yet, but I plan to read all of those books after I'm done with the Shadow ones. I can't remember the last time I enjoyed reading as much as I have been lately. I guess it's the advantage of having no kids, no homework, and a husband who likes Call of Duty 4 :P (I really just use his gaming as an excuse to read or do something on my own... sometimes I need the me time -- I remember when I used to actually be pretty independent).

And I'm almost 100% well! Almost.

Life is good. Enough to say it again.

And I love that Luke enjoys watching HGTV as much as I do :D

29 January 2008

the necessity of pain and consequences

On the eve of Luke and my first combined payday in a while, I am GRATEFUL for Luke's birthday (and the cash donations he received on its behalf) and for late wedding gifts that have granted us financial survival until this payday could finally arrive. I really feel like this struggle is making us stronger... like when you're working out muscles, they tear only to be strengthened as they are rebound. Each time they tear, they become stronger and stronger.

If you do not have a public library card, I highly recommend it. How often do you read a book that you want to own? Definitely less than every time you read a book, right? I don't understand why people buy a book if they have wanted to read it. Umm, hey. That's the entire purpose of the library... so you don't have to spend money on something you'll just read once (or twice or however many times you want to check it out because it's free!). I just finished reading The Giver by Lois Lowry on Saturday. Most people my age read it in about 6th grade, but I never did for some reason. I really loved this book and guarantee that I'll read it again (and now I know that at some point I do want to buy it :P). It was a great reminder to me of the important (and often necessary) purpose of pain. Is it really to our benefit to try and eliminate it? Of course we can minimize the amount of pain in our lives by making good choices, but I also know there are some causes of pain that are essential to our personal growth and character. I may decide to never touch a hot stove because my mom told me not to, but I can tell you that I learned the lesson a lot more personally when I burnt myself... and I realized that there are worse things than burning yourself on the stove. While it definitely does hurt, I probably don't need to live in fear of the kitchen stove.

A couple of Sundays ago we were talking about Lehi's vision in 1 Nephi 8 - 12 (in the Book of Mormon) and we were discussing the mists of darkness (which represent temptation). In order to eventually get to the tree of life (which represents eternal life), you must hold fast to the rod of iron (which represents the word of God -- I see it as kind of a guardrail), which is the straight way leading to the tree. It is so easy to forget that in this vision, the rod of iron passes directly through the mists of darkness. You can't just avoid the mists altogether, but you have to pass through them, while still clinging tightly to the iron rod. You have to OVERCOME the temptation by choosing to hold to the better path, rather than trying to take a different route to avoid it altogether. Then you're just fumbling for your own way, thinking it will be easier -- and it very well may be easier, but life is hard for a reason. If it's easy, then it probably won't get you to the place (or allow you to become the person) you ultimately want to be. Anyway, those of you who have read The Giver hopefully understand what I'm talking about, but I really enjoyed the book and recommend it to anyone who hasn't read it.

It's silly to even mention this, but whenever I think of the principle of pain, it reminds me of an episode of Grey's Anatomy I saw in one of the first seasons... there was a little girl who thought she was a superhero because she could feel no pain. She would always tell kids to punch her in the stomach to prove that she was invincible. Just because she couldn't feel the pain doesn't mean that the blows to her stomach weren't causing her body harm. She was internally bleeding because she was allowing herself to be damaged over and over again ... because she didn't even know there was anything wrong. My point if: We may complain about pain, but if we didn't have it as a warning, we would just keep doing things that were harmful to ourselves. Granted, sometimes people ignore the pain and continue to hurt themselves (and I don't just mean physically), but at least we have that warning if we are willing to react to it. Instead of running away from pain, maybe we should be figuring out what is causing it and learn how to solve whatever is causing it. Then we know how to press forward instead of just running away from anything that may challenge us.

That's all, really.

I'm starting to feel better... all day I felt like my ears were getting ready to pop, but they never did. I'm really hoping to feel well enough to go back to work tomorrow. I know they rely on me for a lot and I want to be there to fulfill my duties.

I've decided that life is so interesting because 1. we're supposed to enjoy it, and 2. we're supposed to learn from it. I don't really enjoy boring things and I'm not usually very willing to learn from them either.

Now, that's all.

28 January 2008

President Gordon B. Hinckley: Remembered...


President Gordon Bitner Hinckley, the prophet and president of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints passed away last night about 8 p.m. CST. Honestly, I thought I would be a lot more devastated when this finally happened, but at 97, I can't think of how his life could've contained more goodness within it. His wife passed away in April of 2004 and all I can feel is the joy that he must feel right now as he can finally be with her again. President Hinckley has been the prophet since 1995, so for pretty much all of my adult life, he is the one I have looked to the most for guidance and direction in my life. He was called to be a messenger to all the world... a mouthpiece to direct us through the words of the Lord.

I know, through the many things that President Hinckley has brought about, that he was truly a prophet of the Lord (by his fruits ye shall know him). Not only that, but the Spirit has testified it to me, every time I have heard him speak. He would speak with humility, good humor, and with great authority because he had confidence in the Lord.

He has accomplished so much for the Lord's kingdom and I am so grateful to have been able to learn so much from such a wonderful man. I know the next prophet, to be named after President Hinckley's funeral, will be just as inspired as President Hinckley, and I look forward to learning from him as he is directed by the Lord.

27 January 2008

I always was too slow for this game...

... that's right, I got tagged by Beth , so it's my turn to answer some questions about myself. Then I get to tag several of you who may by the end regret that you frequent my blog (if you don't already regret it, that is).

A. The Rules are posted at the beginning.
B. Each player answers about themselves.
C. At the end of the post, the player tags 5 people, posts their names, and goes to their blogs letting them know they've been tagged.


5 Things I Was Doing 10 Years Ago
1. Counting down the months/weeks to when I could attend church dances (at age 14).
2. Playing on the 8th grade girls' basketball team at South Junior High.
3. Playing on a city co-ed soccer league (yes, at the same time as bball)
4. Being REALLY awkward .. and somewhat boyish (this is when the baggy pants began to appear)
5. Listening to Backstreet Boys shamelessly.

5 Things On My To-Do List Today
1. Figure out how to breathe with all this gunk in my nose
2. Get better so I can go to work tomorrow.
3. Start a new book (I just finished The Giver by Lois Lowry yesterday and it was amazing)
4. Take a shower
5. Eat a full meal (a queasy stomach doesn't make this one an easy task)

5 Snacks I Enjoy
1. Reese's Puffs Cereal
2. Minute Maid Limeade and Cherry Limeade push popsicles
3. Oranges
4. Yogurt
5. Sour Cream and Cheddar Baked Ruffles

5 Things I'd Do if I Were a Billionaire
1. Pay off all our debts and those of our family members.
2. Buy a hybrid/energy-efficient car (or 2).
3. Backpack through Europe (especially Italy, Greece, Austria, rural: France, Scotland and England)
4. Donate money to the church welfare programs and go on a married couple mission with Luke for the church
5. Build an energy-efficient house or 2 in locations to be determined.

3 Bad Habits
1. Being grumpy for pretty much no reason.
2. Running late.
3. Not being physically active enough.

5 Jobs I've had
1. Data entry at NCS Pearson (now called Vangent)
2. Sonic Car-Hop
3. www.Infoition.com (I shouldn't specify more, for the sake of protection from competitors of this company)
4. EFY Counselor, Building Counselor, and Field Coordinator
5. Special Ed Paraeducator at LFSHS

5 Things People Probably Don't Know About Me (this was hard for me, since I'm pretty much an open book)
1. I actually enjoy watching Luke play Call of Duty 4 on XBOX 360 Live (I'll be sitting in the same room reading a book and then without even thinking about it, there I am saying, "Oh, he's right there! Watch out!")
2. I enjoy making homemade cards for people's birthdays, weddings, Christmas, etc... so much that I started just making sets of cute cards with my scrapbooking supplies
3. I've had to fire someone before ... and it was not fun.
4. I'll be jobless come June (until August), but will find something temporary until school starts again.
5. Luke plans to make me audition for American Idol this summer ... I think it would be a fun experience (and wouldn't expect anything to come of it -- I personally think it's kind of rigged), but I don't know what songs I would sing.

Okay, I tag: Lori, Laura, Karen, Al, and Gaia

And Happy Birthday LORI!!! Your last one! :)

In other news, Luke and I got to go to the Winter Quarters Temple yesterday and it was a wonderful trip. We rode with Matt and Ali and I didn't get sick until the way home, so I was able to enjoy my time in the temple. It was an extremely needed trip for us, so yay.